You shouldn't have to justify yourself to anyone. You have a valid set of concerns. I hope everything works out well and easy for you. But even if you just chose to ff because of no other reason then that is what you choose, then that is no-one's business or decision but your own. And no-one should ever make you feel bad for your decision, and you shouldn't be judged for it. It is YOUR decision, no-one elses. And the 'fabulous' thing about parenthood, is that it doesn't matter what decision you make on what topic, there is ALWAYS going to be someone who disaproves, and everyone has an opinion. Try not to worry about those opinions, they are not worth it, and you derserve to do what it right for you and your family.